Thoughts of a young girl
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Update
Haven't posted in a while, but a lot has happened. From losing all my friends to losing contact with my family, I don't is this what it feels like to be happy? I just feel like I'm further away now. I'm just a little stronger by keeping myself from crying. But now? It's all hopeless. All those things I said in the past? They're coming true now. The things I thought I was imagining. Now it's all coming true. Not because I told them the truth. Because I made this happen. It was my fault for keeping it in. What could I do, it was the only way.
True thoughts???
As I look around to see
what has happened to me?
I always ask why
as I begin to cry
All the things that happen
Have I learned my lesson?
My heart seems to break
As everyone seems to make
My life so miserable
Giving me a label.
They judge by my one mistake
Why can't I just jump in a lake?
It'll be much faster than living this life
Or why don't I just grab the knife
As I pierce it through my skin
while giving a laugh and grin
And when I see society
I must hide my honesty
Because with the more scars I show
The more labels I glow
Even if it hurts so bad
It's the only way to get rid of sad
To get rid of my broken heart
Trying to fill the empty part.
As I face the world of tomorrow
I hope that I won't show my sorrow
That they won't see I'm hurt
As they put on their little concert
I just seem to sit back
As my bottom hits a tack.
Piercing me for my heart
As I just break apart....
what has happened to me?
I always ask why
as I begin to cry
All the things that happen
Have I learned my lesson?
My heart seems to break
As everyone seems to make
My life so miserable
Giving me a label.
They judge by my one mistake
Why can't I just jump in a lake?
It'll be much faster than living this life
Or why don't I just grab the knife
As I pierce it through my skin
while giving a laugh and grin
And when I see society
I must hide my honesty
Because with the more scars I show
The more labels I glow
Even if it hurts so bad
It's the only way to get rid of sad
To get rid of my broken heart
Trying to fill the empty part.
As I face the world of tomorrow
I hope that I won't show my sorrow
That they won't see I'm hurt
As they put on their little concert
I just seem to sit back
As my bottom hits a tack.
Piercing me for my heart
As I just break apart....
Friday, January 18, 2013
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Update
People might guess things have been a lot better over the past few months. The new year has started and I expected some well uh good things to happen. So far that thought not been going so well. I feel lonelier and left out of everything more than ever. I feel abandoned. I only have God now. He is always my friend and protector. I am probably blind not to see them. Them as the two guys that like me. But I choose to not see them. So I won't break their hearts. But the people I love? They are all just slipping away. I just feel lonelier and lonelier. I smile so they can't see me crying and bursting. It is the only way. They don't even care anymore. No matter what they won't ever care. All I do is stay quiet and keep everything inside. Then they all get angry. When I let everything out to please their wishes they just talk about me behind my back. No matter what I do it will be wrong. Just wrong
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