Thursday, November 1, 2012

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What can you do when you're sad? Do you cry? Do you scream out all your anger and sorrow? Do you tell someone? Do you hold yourself back from telling someone? Do you feel like you are bothering someone when you are talking to them? Do you feel scared to tell someone how you truly feel??? Well then, what can you do? Some people say crying really helps. What if it doesn't? What if you cry and you still do not feel any better? What do you then? What if your sorrow never goes away? What if you want someone to comfort you but there is no one to turn to? A hug to me means that person will be there in times of hardship. I give people hugs to show them I will be there. I only know if they need me if they accept my hug. I give them a smile to show my comfort for them. Sometimes you need someone but you feel you're a bother to them and being a burden. Every one who says "I'm there for you" says it and when you actually need them you're not. When you need that shoulder to cry on, they're not there. What do you do when nobody is there.....
What if you wanna cry so badly and just magically terminate your problems, sorrow, insults to others, and anger, but you can't? What if my head spins and it won't stop? What if I don't know who anyone is anymore, including yourself? What if I want to go to the past and stay there? What do you do? What if you want to talk to someone? Not just anyone, but the one you love? What if you want him to be the one showing you he cares? I know that won't be possible, but if only I got 1 hug I would know he cares a bit. That feeling you can never imagine. I read this again and think: This is impossible. Right now there is nothing I can do. It is what my heart and mind tell me to do. People say I listen and I do but sometimes I want to be the one who is speaking and telling them my feelings. I have no idea what is wrong with me. As I type these words I feel selfish and pithiness comes upon me. My heart and my mind control me, for I now have much more to fear.

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